Las Vegas here I come!

I was on the road at 6am today, en route to Montreal to do some training at La Caserne, a hub for some of the most talented circus professionals. I had a week of training planned with some really amazing artists. All packed and eager for an uninterrupted week devoted solely to my "professional development", I was abruptly halted by road closures everywhere, As I waited for an onramp to open up, I decided to run a few errands. I stepped out onto the sidewalk and checked an email that popped up on my phone. An email from Cirque du Soleil. Inviting me to audition in Las Vegas. In two weeks. I almost vomited on the sidewalk.

It's really happening. I have my chance. I had visions of bombing the audition and missing the chance of a lifetime. Negative thoughts streamed in like fire ants up a pant leg -"I'm not prepared. I'm out of shape. I don't have a worthy act. I've got acute tendonitis in my hip flexor. I suck at auditions." Not until later that afternoon did I realize that cirque du soleil picked me to audition for a reason. On some level (however big or small) my work is convincing. Now why do I not believe that myself? After an afternoon of complete panic, and a b-line to the gym, I decided to take a walk to the water...a little park by the Hudson River. I meditated on positive thoughts and tried to be kind to myself. (I was not kind, however, to the brat little girl next to me hurling rocks at the ducks. ) I have 5 minutes to prove to Cirque du Soleil that I am worth hiring. I have a lifetime to battle my inner self and trust that who I am is enough. Whether or not I will actually get into to Cirque du Soleil is a mystery now, but my battle to win self confidence begins today.

So...I'm slacking

I've been slacking on my workout routines. I had virtually 2 weeks of barely moving at all, outside teaching. One of the cons of not being locked into a 9 to 5 schedule, is that it is almost impossible to have any structure at all. Every time I try to schedule regular workouts, a gig pops up (last week I was called to be a body painting model), or a business fire needs to be put out (space constraints with my teaching program), or I'm asked to fill in at a teaching job...and before I know it the week is over and all attempts at working out fell to the wayside. I am still searching for an answer to this dilemma. I just have to make time no matter what comes up. I have to say to myself, workout 5 times this week, no matter what day of the week and no matter what time of day or night....just get 5 workouts in. I will try that tactic from now on. I will take any suggestions I can get. I am also learning it helps to have a workout partner to keep you on track...any volunteers??

This week will be a particular challenge because I am traveling for 5 days. Traveling always poses a problem for aerialists. We can't do what we do without our precious equipment and high ceilings. It's just not something we can do in a hotel room. So, I will be working out the old fashion way - running and weights and pilates. Although I am traveling for a circus conference, so I am sure I will get an opportunity to play in the air, at least a little :). Off to pack now. I am Florida bound....for sun, sandals, and flying trapeze!

Hilary Sweeney Incorporated

Merely loving your art and getting work wherever you can find it is not exactly a sound business plan. I'm pretty sure I'm not alone in the fact that we, artists, say yes to everything and work for free way more often than we should. At the ripe age of 30, living paycheck to paycheck gets old rather quickly. I do in fact want a home of my own someday and a comfortable salary, but I don't want to have to wait tables until 2 in the morning, or marry an investment banker. I want to earn it on my own AND do what I love.

The only way to get there is through a lot of planning and a whole lot of discipline and commitment. So, this past weekend I began structuring a business plan, with the help of Manuel who recently finished an intense Project Management Training course. I'm only a fraction of the way through and already it is transforming the way I think about my livelihood and the choices I am making for myself. If my mission is clearly defined, I will only chose opportunities that directly support it. Decisions become much easier and my energies are focused only on tasks that help to drive my business forward. Next in the planning process is budget and salary requirements. If I were paying someone to do a job for me, I would pay them what they were worth and I would pay them on time. I should be doing the same for myself...or at least more actively pursuing the target. If any other artist wants advice on this process, I will be happy to share my notes and templates for structuring your own plan. Just message me!

Not your average Monday

When I used to work at Pepsi, I had an abusive relationship with my alarm clock - especially on Monday mornings. Mondays were never remarkable. They were a "drag-your-feet-to-work" day after a way too brief weekend. I must say, since I left the corporate world things got a lot more interesting. Case in point: this Monday I had an aerial bar-tending gig with the lovely ladies of ImaginAerial (www.imaginaerial.com). We poured champagne from the air at an amazing venue overlooking the New York skyline. For those of you who know me well, my spacial awareness drops off when my feet hit the ground. I spill something at least once every meal. So, the real feat for me was not posing at 20 feet in the air, it was pouring champagne without spilling. I did surprisingly well! If only I could replicate the same grace in my own kitchen. There were 6 of us rotating in 15 minute shifts throughout the night. And we got to watch a fireworks display at the end of the night. I'd say that's a pretty remarkable Monday.